My little one walked down the halls of her school for the first time this school year.
“Daddy…everyone is taller!”
I watched her greet her old friends and smiled. She looked back at me.
“Daddy! We are all back! Everyone is back!
She was so excited. One of her friends ran up to me…
“Yes, Lainy’s friend?”
“Umm..everyone is here. Except _____, she was on a plane..and it crashed.”
“WHAT! Are you serious? What!! What happened?”
“Lainy’s dad? I’m just kidding…I like to joke a lot.”
“Well, not the best joke in the world to be honest. But, we have all year to work on it.”
“Haha…I like when you try to be funny Lainy’s dad.”
She ran back to her group of friends and the giggle-fest continued. I recognized a few of the parents in her new class and waved hello. And I caught eyes with a few of the new parents I have never met. And as a parent, you can’t help but “size up” the parents you have never met before. I loved the group of parents from Bug’s first grade class. They were nice….helpful…and treated the other kids like they were their own. I looked at a set of parents I did not know and walked up to them.
“Hey, how’s it goin? First day of school…this is exciting right?”
The two parents just stared at me blankly. And silence entered the space in between us.
“Well, have a great day!” I walked away awkwardly wondering why I was ignored. Flashbacks of my dating life when I was single flooded my head.
I retreated to another corner of the room and watched Bug figure out what seat to sit in.
“Dad…I think I will sit here.” She opened her desk and began to ooh and ahh and all the space. She inspected each nook and cranny like a potential buyer at a car dealership.
“Second grader’s desks are bigger, Dad. Because we are bigger….so we need bigger desks.”
“Makes sense, wait til you see where you have to store your stuff when you are in high school. You get your own locker….and it will have a lock on it.”
“Really? I can’t wait to have one..”
She couldn’t wait to get this school year started…but I was not ready. I am not ready for her to grow up. I will NEVER be ready for this.